DATING IN JAPAN & RED FLAGS/ICKS ☠️😂 w/@SundaiLove

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I think I really like mly mly guys they should build a boat or something recently I had a crush right and this is the first time I got taken away from my mom got adopted I feel like my most successful relationship is going to be after my husband dies oh my

God you want your phone oh you have two phones like me you’re a drug dealer huh I knew it come by come by if you think about it I’m in Japan because my mom is Japanese you watch anime and build your whole life towards a life that you had

In your mind out the second I got here I was always supposed to stay a year right one year I was like bro I’m not leaving anime is life you know but it was like it introduced me to Japanese culture the architecture especially the architect I thought it was so beautiful their

Customs so different I feel like there’s no other type of person that is more different from African-American than Japanese were you like the outlier amongst your friends kind of like in Elementary School and J I was a loser it was like Pokemon anime and it wasn’t

Cool and then I go to high school and they like oh you got that blah blah blah was like get the [ __ ] out of here now this is cool you guys suck I really wish I could get into anime you know what’s funny I swear I have zero anime friends

I watch ji movies yes Le you got that and you know your life is pretty much like um Kiki right oh yeah I forgot about that yeah you do have a Kiki tattoo it really is though she’s like no I’m going to leave and do it all on my own with just

Me and my cat no literally my favorite scene from that movie is when she’s counting money on her bed stop stop that’s my favorite thing ever I have a rug of it in my house I had a custom rug made of her account her money when I was a kid

That’s what made me want to ask for an allowance after I watched that movie I went to my mom and I was like I think I should start getting an allowance going to college in America doesn’t seem like going to a new country to me why cuz you

Spoke English cuz imagine going to a country where you can speak the language struggles the thing is like this is not even I don’t even care if you leave it in here but a lot of people actually don’t know like why I can’t speak I have

Dyslexia and ADHD you did tell me that yeah but it’s like the advanced version it’s like really bad like I can’t I’ll forget my phone number I’ll forget my address it’s it’s a lot like if I’m reading I’ll read stuff like completely backwards when I’m writing it’s not like

From a lack of trying it’s more like my brain’s like no you know why I thought you hadn’t learned Japanese I thought it was because you hadn’t dated a Japanese person did you know you had dyslexia when you were in school oh uh was it before Elementary kindergarten and my

Mom was like ain’t nothing wrong with her y’all just suck every time I remember third grade they like she can’t spell her name she keeps putting a b and a p and a d they’re all the the same letters like she can’t like something’s wrong M was like screw yall and then

When I went on Top Model I got in trouble cuz we had to like pass a psych test it’s like test I can’t do tests so I failed of course and they called me in like so why do you want to harm the other girls I was like what are you

Talking about I don’t want to harm anybody I had to go through this super long therapy session of like 4 days she was asking me all these things I’m like I already know I’m dislexic like done I already know I havehd right I upet it right right and she’s like sweetie I

Think you have dyslexia and ADHD I was like oh yeah I know but she almost passed the flip out she was like what you knew I like yeah wait so made them think you wanted to harm the other girls cuz there’s a bunch of questions on there and if it’s

Like yes no like stuff like you flip I flipped it all it was like I feel like you’ve lived three people’s lives already at your age cuz you know you have so many chapters in your life I know I started from Japan but you really should start from the beginning even

Before Top Model cuz that’s not something that everyone can do you know what were you like when you were in kindergarten what was like mini Sunday like that was wild really already in kindergarten yeah it was like the ADHD on steroids I don’t know I just has so

Much energy and I always want to like build or make something or create something and I was always like doing junk to be famous so it was like wild it was just wild that’s what I mean to me that seems like you have a superpower but then it’s just people obviously

Didn’t know you know with a lot of things like things like dyslexia and ADHD I just think the brain just works in a different way from other people oh my God thank you so I don’t think it’s a disadvantage so many people don’t see it

That way but that’s why I see I’m like okay but I’m creative and I get stuff done I’ve not been diagnosed with ADHD but all my friends seem to think I have it and honestly the way you be I’m in Korea I’m in China I’m back here hey you

Want to come over girl it’s giving we have according to the world issues but you know what it is like so you always wanted to be popular when you were famous I don’t know it was like this oh well to be fair my family is famous my

Grandpa he’s in bloodstones he’s he’s in the what Bloodstone just like a old group back in the day that sings oh what and then my dad everybody has like music I’m just like so I’m around all that stuff I’m like I want to be I want to be a rapper at the

Time I didn’t c i don’t cuss I still don’t cuss he should be a rap Duo this year it was awful like you don’t want me and it was so sad cuz my whole family like hyped me up my grandma SP me beat machine they got Ser so serious like

Instruments everything like believing in me like have any of you heard me rap wow were you popular in school or were you more I was like well known that Mak sense and then like the weird kid so I would like do TV shows underneath the

It’s like a bench like this mhm I go underneath there and do TV shows so everybody come watch the show in school yeah and a lot of time I would eat bugs wait a minute cuz it’s like you know bro wait what what is Fear Factor

Wait so I catch like beetles and JK and I’d like all right next thing just going to eat a bug and i’ freaking eat a bug I’m like it wasn’t until my crush I got to sit next to him and his friend MH he was like oh you sitting next to the bug

Chick I was like the bug chick my heart I was like oh no we’re not doing that show anymore you know High key I think we were total opposites but also similar I think I like doing things that are in front of other people that’s rare that’s rare like basketball and soccer that’s

Rare really cuz like a lot of people have like phobia I don’t know what to call they’re shy because I was so shy I wasn’t doing any of it you yes girl you yes did you date some random man in a random country and you it’s been a long

Journey to get to this minin okay when I was in kindergarten my mom would drop me off of school I would literally hold on to her legs and not want to enter the school that’s adorable I want a kid like you that’s so trust me you honestly I

Can’t I can’t imagine this and then my mom would be like no I’m going to just go get your lunch box never comes back never comes back actually neglect I know never comes back but obviously what can she do if I’m doing this every single day as she’s dropping me my going to

Whoop my butt don’t get your butt in there acting like you’re stupid get in there in school I knew I wanted to do stuff like musicals but I was way too shy to do them but As I Grew Older I got less shy and then I started doing more

Of the things that I enjoy but me when I was younger would never have been able to do YouTube that shy yeah Dam you were always meant for this I used to make my friends like perform yeah school on the monkey bars I think I helped my cousins

Train to become singers I love it so I think I was the company owner well you know how I told you did I already tell you I want to do music no I didn’t tell you this no well I want to do music so that’s kind of what I spent

The whole year last year doing like making songs what yeah who’s this chick what kind of music wait that’s how or like like music music um sing rapping sing rap what like neither if singing was here rapping was here like right in the middle so neither extreme of both

That’s actually really dope all over the maybe you do have videos to I really probably do a lot of stuff I know I know that’s why this year I’m trying to focus I don’t know how that’s going to work out but we’ll see how it goes but you’re

Trying which is way more than most people do most people just stay home and dream zero effort towards anything like that’s dope thank you thank you in middle school high school what were you like it’s kind of like a huge Middle School was like a big change M like I

Had one middle School in the ghetto and then I got taken away from my mom got adopted went to another family in the like white Ry area and that was cool I was like like like instant like overnight I this is different oh damn but I didn’t change it

Was like still the same person I like just cooler over here do you want me to skip over the adopting stuff I don’t okay so how did that happen o actually never said this so funny when I was on a top model like the private interview I said like what happened and

So the entire show Tyro was trying her absolute best to get that story out of me and I never said it and then like I was on every episode besides one and then the one that I got cut I was like if I make it tomorrow I’ll tell you guys

What happened I got cut but I knew it was already like planned and scheduled so it was like it was so funny I never got the story so an incident occurred within the Family yes an incident occurred think you’re probably the only one that actually knows the real story I’m not even joking I told I told nobody what I feel so special I told nobody wow I just realized wait sorry the twins though like cuz I said it and I thought

They knew I was like oh never knew can you tell the twins that I thought they were one person I would tell them I can’t wait I need to meet the twins they’re awesome they also I swear have ADHD and just don’t want to admit it maybe that’s get tra maybe does that

Mean we all just don’t have conversations when we’re together and we just jump from one topic to another facts but that’s why I get along with them cuz I’m like and they know how to like drag me back they won’t get like offended that I talk over them some I

Just cut them off and I’m like I’m going to forget if I don’t say it right now that’s so true my friends actually tell me all the time AR up write it down because you’re not going to remember my whole phone is notes a lot of successful

People that I know it just makes so much sense once you hear what they were like in school and how they were treated or how you know they treated other people I noticed for a lot of times with guys that are super successful either they didn’t get girls in high school I just

Or they were super skinny and now they’re super buffed it’s actually fact right it’s actually fact because the guys that were popping in high school I honestly when you look at them now they really pee back then yeah bro they’re balding and junk like a so I’m trying to

Figure out like what you were like in high school that high school I was schol cuz I was like doing TV shows I was already on like music videos and J anyways um those are like music videos Chris Brown Snoop Dog what wait how does that happen my sister so your sister was

Just really popping that she had the connect she was so popular she’s so pretty so talented um sister you were in Chris Brown’s music video at 16 no no that was a different artist I remember remember that guy check that laugh would you say you were hardworking

Back then or did things scary so was like treasure I’m in every sport fashion Club president I was doing everything how come I don’t know I just always doing like I like to be the best but not because I’m like I don’t even know why to be honest I just like to be

The best I can be some people like to be the best so they can show off or so they be on top but like not me I’m just like I to be the best me I can be I can’t be sitting around doing nothing like I

Can’t pinpoint why I want to but I think that’s why your personality is so good you’re not one of those people that’s doing it for big awful reasons how did you know I could be a bad person n that J me slipping out oh thank you I

Wasn’t really a social person in high school I think I just kind of knew the friends that I got along with and I liked being in that group but never wanted to venture out oh really yeah oh and I also didn’t go out at all like clubbing clubs not clubs is fine cuz

Like we’re too young what about like parties like I didn’t like going to parties what what my friends would actually come in pregame at my place and they would be like Mar let’s go Mar let’s go and i’ be like no you guys can go

Now now when I’m in Ghana I go out every day so I really changed as a person like in high school I did not go out every day yeah now if I go to Ghana it’s we outside every day the scene’s probably a lot different too like high school scene and then now

Yeah no no no I think it was really more of a me thing I think I was just way too Japanese really I think my because my personality was quite more Japanese really yeah I feel like my personality as I got older became more Ghan but when I was in elementary school

100% I was way more Japanese did you get bullied for that I don’t think I’m a bulli person because you know I love it there’s so many people that sit there and just take that Dr okay did you go to college I did you did I know right I

Don’t know how but I did actually first I went to college in LA and then I was like I hate this oh my God it was so weird I hated it because there was too many black people which I never thought I would say in my life I love black

People I love my people these were like I don’t know these black people they had me feeling like it was middle school again I was like I’m leaving cafeteria with like a little tray and they was all like staring at me up and down I was like I’m leaving M and

Funny thing is my sister she like helped me get into this college and everything and I was complaining and she was like I don’t believe you so she came to class with me one day and she was like oh my God you’re leaving cuz like the teacher

Suck the people suck but yeah I went back home in my hometown in bville this might be a weird question but did you ever feel like you were not black enough always do a lot of arts and crafts and Anime and all kind of things I was just

Like cuz I’m from the hood hood like I don’t know to explain like the hood of the hood of the hood like we down here so these black girls they got two things on their mind twerking and boys that’s it booty boys looking ratchet boys that’s it like

There’s no other life out there there’s nothing else that’s kind of like me no oh no oh no what ass am I going to twerk with oh wait but we’re doing squats this year right I feel like every guy that I’ve been with has been a boobs guy for

Sure really a lot of boys love them I I feel like every man’s a boo guy really still in this day age put this on table again no no it’s fine why are we acting like we’re not ghetto no one likes walnuts we just tolerate them walnuts are like the

Person in your school that you don’t even notice is there what was your dating life like back in school I had like a long-term boyfriend for the longest you were a long-term girlfriend y that was my only to this day date my only love the only

Guy I’ve ever loved oh we need to talk about this we to talk about this wait this is in college or in high school still shock we didn’t get married how many years like five may you were married girl married like the way we broke up was so dumb cuz like we we

Didn’t even split up like he was like we both like hey maybe we should try a break you know we’ve never tried this rightel should have never done that cuz he like let me go and then I was like oh I’m hot bro you didn’t tell me I was hot

You lied to me couldn’t get me back after that wait so he said you guys should go on a break yeah we both were like we should try a break cuz we about something I don’t even know what is sp yeah we like let’s try a

Break and in my head we’re both like this is stupid we’re here you know we’re just joking and then I I’m in University now right you can’t just break right these La [ __ ] running around of course one of the hottest light skins in the

Day in college swo me up I was like well was your type light skins back then no no still isn’t dark SK I like them dark but he was hot what do you think it is that keeps you hung up on that high school cuz I feel like it’s not just you

I think a lot of people people whoever they dated in high school or their first love or whatever I don’t think I’ve been in love before but we’ll get to that in a bit how do you know if you’ve been in love my heart know you just feel it I

Can’t felt that again I don’t know like dang find anything for that person oh I found plenty of times I even went back like how’s this isn’t it well you went back and you felt like it was no we didn’t like get back together but I went

And visited him and you know we talked and he came my graduation for college and all that but no we’re it was done what was about him that you liked everything like what I can’t think of anything like you just list everything there’s nothing I didn’t like appearance personality height teeth looks

Everything what’s your type that’s a good question I actually don’t know your type at all cuz I’m trying to imagine what this person looks like oh he was he wasn’t that cute my type literally this year changed just this year okay what was it before and then what is it now I

Liked sixes like sixes and sevens I don’t remember you saying this that were like really sweet really sweet sixes and sevens that was my soft spot so you like good guys like good guys so you don’t think good guys finish last no like I’m right here but they never come up to me

Cuz they’re too scared but yeah now I don’t think I’m over the six s cuz I learned that Bond suck oh Dam would I be right if I say you enjoy dating sixes because you thought that they were not going to be bad men because they wouldn’t have like that much attention

To them oh that’s a good point no it’s because like I can be like a I could be a nine if I like tried right but at home I can also be a three what are you talking about girl there’s a r this year we need to stop doing um self sabotaging

Is that what it’s called self self self deprecating humor and honestly I don’t really like super good-looking guys they usually come with really bad personalities I’ve never liked dating super hot guys I totally understand what you’re saying because I always say that I don’t like Pretty Boy personality oh

You know yeah no princess treatment jum no I’m the princess what is this I like like a guy that can survive on an island you know what I mean I’m right in the I don’t want a guy that if I take him to Ghana and the lights go off he’s

Like what do we do the lights are out like that would be a total ick for me it’s an ick you get Ked out yeah cuz I think I try not to but wait wait what are your top the top icks like the ones you just like instantly cringe

She’s giggling she already knows oh man okay I have one it’s not a severe ick but it does exist a guy that can’t handle his liquor oh really mind up yeah I’ve heard that a lot from women it’s actually I lied it’s a big I this is all fiction guys

Hypothetically there’s this guy that was really into and then I wasn’t that into him but those was a guy I was kind of into don’t give him that much credit yeah those was a guy I was kind of into and we went out with a group of people

And he got so drunk he was throwing up oh that’s and stuff the next day it was as if I never had feelings for this guy I could not even remember what I liked about him Jack it’s all vulnerable and sick in your life screw this yeah no I think

Once I like the guy I could probably tolerate him more yeah but in that beginning stages don’t show your weaknesses the streets are tough yo the streets are tough don’t be showing your weakness it’s rough out there it’s rough out there oh my god I’ve actually heard a couple women say

That they’re and like really good podcast they’re like the type of man I will never date is a man who can’t handle his lier yeah I don’t know if you experience this I feel like a lot of guys have an assumption that I’m this independent woman so that’s what they’re

Drawn by but in a relationship I don’t want to be an independent woman I’m not your mom oh my God call you miss money okay I’ve never experienced that before before your sugar bab yeah know that that wouldn’t even be an ick that would be a a Black Flag I’m

Out of there I’m not black but honestly though when you’re independent like that like it gosh your dating pool just shrinks but it’s literally the number one thing that ruins my dating life really why how come I’m not trying to like toot M hor that’s toot

It I’m not stuck up let’s be stuck up this year let not stuck up but like I’m pretty goodl looking I take care of myself I take care of myself I’m goodlooking I got money I’m very career- driven I’m very hardworking and it just every time I do stuff it just like

Separates Me from everyone else and then I realize that this is a very unique position man or woman and like the men they feel really intimidated and I noticed I always attract men who are jealous and I never like could understand like I feel like you actually

Hate me like you’re just here because I’m something to get not because you actually like me like you secretly are jealous like they won’t congratulate you there’s no flowers they’re like acting like what you did ain’t that big of a deal or completely ignoring it all together like I just keep attracting

Those kind of men and I’m just like first of all you deserve so much more that’s crazy I do and I’m like oh I can help you like if I see potential in some I’m like oh you just need help like how I need help need stop

That you’re not out here doing community service out here in the streets girl there’s a podcast called Fresh and Fit I heard something they said which you might not like to hear but I actually get where they’re coming from they said that there’s no problem being an independent career-driven woman but it

Doesn’t add as an advantage to women in the dating world yeah to men when they’re looking for women they’re not like hm I want a career-driven woman they’re more like I want a pretty girl who’s yeah going to support whatever who’s going to support exactly I thought about this so much you

Have what so what are you thinking save it wasn’t I got older I was like no these men don’t want Rich successful women they don’t want that they actually want like these broke leeches that can help support their life they don’t they don’t want this I always thought like

Cuz they always talking about gold diggers right so I’m like oh yeah let me get my own money that’s not why I did it but like oh when I got older I was like no no this not what yall want this was a lie this is a scam I could have been in

The hood but it’s confusing because guys also at the same time complain all the time about girls just leeching off of them they’re trying to find something that fits into the lifestyle that they already have that’s true that supports what they’re doing but I need that same

Thing and I think what they were saying is true for a particular demographic of guys I do still think that they are strong independent guys that are attracted to Independent Women though oh cuz I think about my dad oh my mom probably made more money than him when

They met oh that’s interesting but he is like a very mad man especially back in the day if he was dating a woman and his friends or whatever knew that his girlfriend or wife made more I think a lot of African men wouldn’t like that but then my dad just doesn’t really care

So to me I find that more manly he yeah right yeah but then those are the guys that we can’t find I think that’s one thing I give my dad a lot of credit for you like good guys huh I do I don’t like good guys I

Like normal guys what’s normal I don’t like good guys yeah really yeah like I don’t like guys that I can boss around ah I’m it’s not very manly to be fair exactly I I think I really like manly manly guys that makes sense you know they should build a boat or

Something I always say like a man doing construction is the fastest way to turn me on you know what’s all this foreplay let’s build something put together this Ikea shelf build your house I’m wet like do it wait first of all do you want to get married or do you want to be

Relationship so where where is your head up with regards to this we’re turning on my C this year’s like very interesting cuz this is the year I set up in a date so to be fair what to be fair like all this complaining all this whining and

Stuff I don’t date I don’t go out I don’t talk to nobody like I don’t do anything right this year I was like okay I’m my mom like last time I went home she’s like We’re my grandkids you know that clock is ticket I’m like Fast wait

A minute like I’ve been busy making money like I got time to be I think I like people that I can be alone with like if we are in the same space but we don’t have to talk I I can just be editing but just your existence does

Make me feel better every now and then when I’m like hey you want a snack just to let them know I’m still alive you know you’re not an only child might as well be though my sister hated me until like later she did not like did you have to

Be alone like a lot no honestly I was surrounded by friends all the time me too I’m so shocked that I’m so alone now because back then I was never alone I think I’m able to say I like being alone cuz I’m never alone that much like you

Have so many like opportunities to be with people yeah I think if I was actually alone maybe different that’s that’s a good point there are like a lot of foreigners that complain about that when they come to Japan right right I’m going to try and explain this without

Like outing myself but yeah you can cut it out no it’s fine um recently I had a crush right and this is the first time since that long-term relationship that I told you about that I sell anything anything I’m like oh but here’s the thing there’s only the emotion there’s

Only the feeling okay everything else is trash on paper there’s no way I’d ever dat this person we completely incompatible like wait so the only thing you like about this person is I don’t know I just have a feeling that’s it what that’s it wait is that what love is

That’s no it’s just I love this moment did he pick up like your paper from the Flor I don’t know like if I say exactly what he did he’s going to know who he is but like thought I like thoughtfulness okay cuz I’m very very

Giving and very kind like you are and I don’t want to hold back that’s how I always have to do every relationship I have to hold back oh I want to buy you this but I can’t cuz you suck like I want to do this for you but I can’t cuz

You ain’t done nothing for me and like the I have to keep it like level right so I just want to be myself but I can’t cuz these guys suck even he sucks but still like I don’t know whatever he did I don’t know what he did but anyways I

End up Catching Feelings these feelings were caught this year I was like oh I don’t know I feel like a lot is changing like I’m I’m try so at the same time will you me third wheel if you end up dating oh of course when a guy does

Something are you able to forgive them oh absolutely it makes sense really if it makes sense what if it doesn’t but they’re actually sorry I’m too hot if I was ugly maybe there’s this guy hella time has passed and it’s still interested in me but I can’t seem to be a forgiving

Person you know what’s funny like something that people think is so small but like if you go to the club and you’re dancing with a chick you cheated facts like no like I don’t that’s gross like you’re making me look bad that why would I want that I understand fully why

I can’t forgive the person what it’s because hypothetically let’s say I somehow forgive this person imagine the fact that to the people around me is like oh she forgave the guy there are things that can can’t be undone but honestly if it was that important to you

You would messed up that’s what I say what are you looking for maybe someone watching is out there you know what actually nothing I have no nothing it’s a clean slate every time I get in a relationship when it ends I’m like I’m looking for a guy who’s the

Opposite of what that last guy was and then I get that guy I’m like okay well I want someone more nicer and then I get the guy that’s nice I’m like okay well I want some more more manly and then I get the guy that’s manly I’m like okay well

I want some more like it just there’s no point really so I’m like I don’t want anything let me just see what happens but I still don’t want a relationship so I think I’m kind of toxic wait what you don’t want a relationship I know but

Like but my hope is like someone would change my mind wait why don’t you want a relationship they take up too much time I have a solution what’s the solu solu give me give me it what is it so I think I’m really built for long distance

Relationships God I love long distance I love long I love seeing you once every 3 months I know and it’s going to be a great weekend exactly right like I actually hate being with somebody all the time I can’t stand it like can you

Go home me too like me too holding in a fart for two days you got to go fact this is going to sound so messed up people are going to think I’m super weird no say it say it I feel like my most successful oh this is so messed up

I feel like my most successful relationship is going to be after my husband dies oh my God and after like let’s say my guy best friend’s wife dies oh and then we have our separate houses and you know like at that point it’s not like oh we’re young and you

Want to do like the whole relationship thing is more like a functional relationship never heard this before is is is this me is this me just didn’t know it like we live next to each other but we’re not dealing with the whole thing of married or whatever the status

Is we just kind of know that you know we’re 60 and if I don’t want to be alone I’ll see you if I don’t want to that messed up to think that honestly it’s kind of Genius okay I just hate the fact that there’s just one way to be and

I’m like there are so many other ways like literally me and my sister are talking about like we are absolutely not having the same room as our husband that’s wild really and I was like I don’t even want the same house and she was like same facts like live next door

Each other like we didn’t want the same houses but you know I contradict myself cuz I feel like the marriage is over once I’m not living with a person or once I’m not in the same bed as the person so I know that that’s necessary

But at the same time I also know how comfortable it would be if I really loved the guy and he just lived next door and not at my house yeah I we had a connecting door that’s a good one right you see I’m convinced that once I fall

In love maybe my thought process would change so that’s why I’m like right now like just what ever like somebody might change my mind like maybe hly the last Crush changed my mind completely really not not completely but like I can spend a whole day with him and I’m like fine

Which is unheard for me maybe you do just have to like the person no you know that’s so true I don’t think I can ever fart in front of the guy ever till I die bro we’re human yeah no I’m not the guy that I dated um he knows I’m never going to

Fart or poop if he in the room wait what he’s leaving the room what go and take a walk go take yep you outside go back to the streets for a second what’s happening you can come back later probably ask the man to wipe if I had to

Like like bro can you wipe my butt like I can’t I’m dead right now no maybe that’s the guy that I would you haven’t been in love yet you haven’t been in love yet you’re right that’s what it is you’re right love will have you fart each other’s mouth it’s fine what no

That’s so crazy so this guy he wanted me to poop while he was in the room because he was like why aren’t you comfortable with me right yeah so he was always trying to figure out like when I’m going to go I was like you’re never going to

Know my whole family is are number one topic so there’s no way it’s all they talk about my family is different the theme of the family may me wake up can you guys adopt me please come through oh you’re going to poop in front of everybody we’re talking to no cuz that’s

F cuz they not the guy I’m dating true anyways moving on from pooping think like this dating stuff right I think it comes a lot from your Dynamic with your parents and your childhood and upbringing oh if that’s the case bro I’m a lost cause girl throw

It in the trash you and I both maybe we should get houses next to each other when I was younger my nightmare was getting pregnant really yes interesting first of all I had a phobia of pregnant people when I was a kid I’m not joking I’m not I’m not

Joking I’m not joking oh my God I had a pregnant teacher one time and I switched classes I’m not joking how how are you laugh me like this is serious this is y this is therapy what is happening you need therapy it was because I watched an

Episode of Sweet Life of Zach and Cody I love that show but it wasn’t just that it was multiple shows that I watched you know these graay Anatomy shows I stuff like the pregnant woman is always going through some [ __ ] they are and Zach and Cody the lady started giving birth in

The elevator so my nightmare was getting stuck in an elevator with a pregnant person so I never wanted to be in a en closed space with a pregnant person you’re too close man exactly one time when I was a kid I had a dream that I

Was running down the hallway in my house and behind me was a army of pregnant women chasing me and they were telling me you need to help us deliver our baby God that’s wild so you have a desire to have kids that makes sense I want like 10 though and

I’m too late you want 10 kids I 10 cuz I want a farm I’m like who’s going to run the farm as many as I can fit in one car six you has six kids I’ll take six it’s too late though no it’s not but at the same

Time I don’t I do not want kids half without the three times so have you always liked kids how how come you want kids I don’t know just like I love family settings I love you know the Sunday dinners and the holidays and all that stuff I just and I’m very I

Think I’d be a very good mother I can totally see that I’d be a good mother like that’d be a waste but and also I have to adopt because I was adopted so I always said like when I got adopted I was like I’m absolutely going to get

Back there’s no way in the world I’m not D kid I think one of my worries too is that I’ll be a bad mom really I could see that this get deep what stop it do you want children see children in the future I thought I was going to be like

So what brought you to Japan number one I’m scared that I won’t be a good mom number two um but then not in a like sense of like oh I might enough no I know I can do anything I set my mind to but I think I’m just too

Selfish right now to want to prioritize a kid that’s good though that’s a really good mindset to have and I feel like once you have a kid your entire focus should be the kid you should a you’re so responsible who’s this chick what is this what’s this CH am I responsible or

Am I just acknowledging that I’m irresponsible I do think that there are guys that would just like you for the way you are there are but I don’t want them that’s so true obviously people’s Tendencies come from what they’ve seen or what they’ve done right and then there’s rare people like you who

Actually have some type of desire to improve or want to do better or whatever that case may be but it’s easier said than done I feel like the day I learned that bubbles existed like just changed my life bubbles which was anime too we all live in these little Bubbles and the

Only thing you know is whatever is in this bubble that’s it but we don’t know that there’s a whole world outside that bubble there’s other bubbles too and it was as I watch anime I was like w they’re living a whole another life they got all these other things like it’s

Like they go to school like like you know they’re all serious about school they study like what is this life so I was like oh there’s another bubble and I started looking at these Bubbles and when I realized that there’s a whole world outside of this world like it just

Changed everything I’m like guys we can do anything there’s a lot of stuff we can do the counselor like gave up on all these kids basically not like she wanted to but like she has to type of thing and I remember like her coming in here she’s

Like do you even want to go to college I was like oh is that an option and her eyes lit up like I’ve never seen anyone that excited she was Asian she’s like oh you’re interested oh my God she just got so excited she didn’t bought my prom dress she was so

Like into me just like somebody actually cares to get out of the hood we’re going to do everything for this chick and I’m like people are so willing to help you if you just like are able to accept the help I don’t know how I explain it but

Like she just opened up my eyes like there’s a lot you can do you can do anything pretty much your life is kind of crazy is it it’s definitely crazy because you actually 180 to your life life from where you started to where you

Wanted to get to I did I don’t know how I did it but I mean there’s a lot there’s nothing but hurdles like it’s so funny cuz everyone’s like Sunday always has a plan Z like cuz nothing ever works but you can’t give up like don’t stop

Just keep going like of course the first try is not going to work the second or the third or the fourth like that doesn’t mean you give up you just keep going there’s a way have you ever wanted to give up no if you never give up you can’t

Fail there’s no there’s no failing like so why would you give up it’s fine just keep going cuz you can have whatever you want if you really want something then go get it they’re content with their lives and they complain all this stuff but really they are comfortable they’re

Content and that’s fine like I hate to say this but there are sheep somebody’s got to be the Sheep somebody it’s not for everybody like I know I can’t sit underneath somebody like every job I’ve ever had I’ve risen to the top like instantly cuz I can’t

Sit down there and like I know I can do your job better than you I know I can like you know you just have to know where you fit in this world and that’s fine as long as you’re happy that’s all that matters I know I would not be happy

Just like when you realize that there’s Bubbles and then you have this bubble that you want to get to what was like your first step of action where you like writing down oh I want to do this this did you have a plan I feel like every

Day I was doing something like I was recording CDs I was trying to get interviews I remember my first audition ever got in La like my mom had to drive her like bucket we kept breaking down like all the way cuz it’s like a 2-hour

Drive yo we barely made it we made it this audition and like did my whole rap thing and then he was like you have to get rid of your accent cuz I had a really strong like country accent so I was like okay and then I like went into voice

Training and I just did I was always doing something like every second of my life I was doing something I’m guessing your love language to give is gift giving yeah to give yeah but not to accept what’s the accept uh acts of service act ofice wait why E I don’t like

This and don’t like it and everyone thinks it’s gifts they buy me gifts I’m like no actually yeah gifts are not even in my top three acts of service number one what’s your number two I never even cared about any of the other ones I totally agree it’s just acts of service

No I always say that if a guy like let’s and the acts of service I know what a guy can do that will make me fall in love instantly oh give me the Spiel but I can’t let them know now’ll just do it and then they’re then maybe we can

They’re just going to SC like guy just does something like with a thought of like helping out my career like let’s say I need a film a video and I’m like I don’t have ideas or let’s say he like plans a trip he’s like this would be good for your

Video so do I love the guy or the video I’m kidding I’m kidding no I I really like the fact that he thought about like that feel like those are definitely out there and also like honestly small things like bringing me food a that’s so small simple yeah like if I don’t ask

For it and they do something that I’ve not asked for love that cuz I’m never going to ask yeah I’m never going to ask but I probably need something yeah me too but I did realize that a lot of the guys that I’ve been with enjoy cooking

Oh I hate that why cuz I love cooking so like no that’s my thing like get your own thing a no I don’t mind it I’m like I’m like cook like go ahead like some guy was like trying to impress me like I can cook I was like that’s bad that’s

Not a good thing like I can cook I didn’t build this skill just for you to outdo me go get your own skin build the house I’m in the kitchen I’m dead I feel you on that feel I mean I’m I’m always there to get a free meal that’s a good

One yeah can I tell you one of my ex is a guy that would do anything I say kind of like that I don’t like that why can’t I find this one what do you like that yes I’m like wow if I snap my fingers he’ll be here right now that’s what I

Want I don’t want that oh my God if I have any push back I don’t want him I don’t want to push over no you need to be so pushed over my feet are on your face I love it if there’s a fine line between being a

Pushover and being a gentleman I guess so you know depend on how hot they are cuz they’re super hot and they’re pushover it’s fine but if you’re not that hot in your pushover I’m like H I love a short King you love a short King

A short King I don’t like tall cuz it hurts my neck looking up at you all day like that’s exhausting oh my neck can look up where are these men my standard are in the trash where are these men outside your house wait a

Minute I mean if he want to not text me it’s fine God dang he’s cute wait what he’s not just cute he’s like a he’s up there so guess what guess why I’m even more drawn to him yes girl yes girl this is how he came in right hot he

Came in hot hot and usually this would be an ick for me no that’s not an ick he did it right because his face is right if this face was not right my told me that you guys are chilling like this I should have brought

My pajama you guys are like you made me dress up for no reason you guys you know what’s up you want this is a sneak peek into the next episode because now we have more guests coming init are we doing two episodes is that the same episode I mean this now

Let’s wrap this one up and we start the next one once the people come in Sunday thank you so much you’re welcome for thank you Monday thank you Friday to this [ __ ] thank you to eliana’s ass thank you to Elana’s ass we spoke about why we’re single what kind of depression is this

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